Wow, Lostinthetrees, that is an amazing and most brutally honest post I've read in awhile. I have teens so the thought of them starting out like you did is heart wrenching. The point where we start hiding the stuff from our loved ones is what really got me. I have 3 bottles of empty wine that I just found after unpacking from a recent move--all packed into weird places. I would have a glass or two openly but have the bottle in a hidden spot for pick-me-ups throughout the evening so it didn't look like I was drinking much. The humility and shame of hiding the bottles with fear that they'd be discovered was overwhelming. My spouse never said a thing although I would have preferred he would have called me on it vs helping me keep the secret. I guess it was also too shameful for him. Stay strong and keep coming here. I am a lurker more often than poster but it helps me to come to this website at least twice a day.