When I first admitted I had a problem to myself and others I was also drinking about 2 bottles of wine per day and taking Xanax in the am to help me "come down". Nobody really realized I had a real problem either and nothing really bad had happened "yet". Sadly I was not able to stay sober at that point. I went on to drink for the next 4 years with only short periods of sobriety here and there until life became a genuine living hell. Only by the grace of God, I now have more than 2 years sober.
For me it had to get to the "living hell" point and I'm lucky I survived it. It doesn't have to be that way for you!
Welcome!