Elle, I know for me the first month or six weeks was very raw. It got much better after that so don't let anything knock you off your goal.
No one here is offended. I don't know if it is your first time in internet forums or not, but it is difficult for people to really completely understand what a poster is saying and many times posts in a thread will be people relaying their experiences hoping that they have understood your question or issue.
Here, in AA, and in life, the majority of people just want to help. They don't always get it right according to us. That's okay. The underlying truth is that we all come from our own experiences and we all find our own path in life and in sobriety. My way is not necessarily your way. But I want sobriety for you. I know you are strong and smart and if you want to be sober, if you really want the life that was intended for you - you will find your way.
((blessings))