Nuudawn it is so easy to feel lost when caught up in addiction. It's almost dehumanizing. One reason I write in such detail here and will continue to do so is for the hope of someone who feels the same to be able to connect with it, and maybe feel slightly less lost themselves. I am so lucky to have a partner who gives me so much support, along with my friends and this community, already. Thank you so much. You are in my thoughts!