It shook me for awhile, then I said "nope", I recognized that it's not reality just insecurity. No one around me even remembered my mess up, only me. My brain was looking for a way to escape, but no one wanted me to leave, just my insecure self.
Not reality, just insecurity. I recognize this in myself as well. Particularly now the veil of alcoholic haze has been lifted; I am experiencing feelings full force and in real time. I need to get better at it. Sounds like you are practicing mindfulness!