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Old 07-06-2014, 04:51 AM
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Originally Posted by soberlicious View Post
Jaynie, excellent post. The undermining of confidence is what I find to be the most dangerous practice in recoveryism.

For me, I had that spidey sense when I first quit, I did everything related to conventional wisdom also because that's what I was "supposed" to do. I realize now that I often faced with a collective beast. The feeling can be overwhelming. Seriously, if I wasn't such an opinionated b*tch I'm not sure I could have gotten out unscathed.
I think it is this idea of "collective beast" I find most intriguing and unbelievably dangerous. My realization is that the feelings of frustration I am experiencing were a manifestation of the response my Beast has to this collective and an indication of its attempt to manipulate me. Truly an awakening for me.

This "collective" Beast is EVERYWHERE and insidious.
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