Thank you everyone.
I have been in counseling and will go on my own again. I know I have to own my stuff. I love my daughter so much, she is my world. So this tears me up to no end.
Amy55, thank you for the book suggestion. I looked it up and it does not reassure me to say that there is a lot familiar there. My daughter's bio mom has pretty severe mental illness. Thanks, I'll order this book.