Unbelievable
I have allowed myself to be yanked all over the map this past weekend
Took my brother to his chemo and chatted with his doctor
Doctor asked my brother if he was drinking - my borhter said "I have one once in a while"
And I said "No Tim, since Monday you have at least 18 beers that I am AWARE of"
Long story short he agrees to detox and rehab and is admitted to the hospital
Yay, right?
Not in alcoholic idiocy land.
When the social worker did the asssesment ( I wasn't there) he lied and said he didn't have a drinking problem blah blah blah.
So now he is being discharged with nowhere to go and he sure as hell can't come back to our place.
In 4 days he wreaked such havoc and caused so much misery it was unreal
He is overmedicating on Diladiud and Morephine and DRINKING
The doc told him he was probably going to die of an accidental OD.
On Saturday I lost it and yelled at him and his response??
"You sound mad"
I am officially off the crazy train, I can't do this anymore
God I hope this makes sense
I am so depressed and so sorry that it ends this way
I can't think straight