Yes, it says something that no one noticed his absence for a month.
Sorry for those mixed emotions your're feeling right now, Blossom. It's normal to feel relief when an abuser is gone. Your human self also understands that he was a child of God like the rest of us, but at some point his experiences led him to abuse others and not seem to care or want to stop. He made his own choices and left a path of destruction. Not okay. I don't believe God will judge you for feeling relief. He knows your pain. It helps me in times like yours to pray for the soul of the offender, and then offer it up and let it go. You shouldn't have to carry that weight. I'll pray that you can find your peace. Hugs to you.