Originally Posted by
glasshalffull 
I am still trying to digest your replies, but the thrust of it appears to be that I must've known I was telling myself a lie, with 'I will never drink again'. I wasn't. That's the truth of the matter and what is so confounding. I wish it were that simple.
If I commit to such a statement again, how do I know if I am lying?
I have struggled with this as well. GT (and others) have tried mightily to explain it to me, but to no avail. My observations of my head don't match their observations of their heads. In the end I concluded that I needed more than a BP in my sobriety program. Others don't and I am glad that is working for them, but I need a regimen that works for me. I need to train the beast tamer.
Beating an addiction is a highly personal matter. One size doesn't fit all. Tailor a custom solution that works for you.
You can do this.