we have a saying here Quit going to the Hardware Store for Bread.
what you want you just can't get.....from HIM. now the good news is that leaves about 5,002 OTHER options! you came here, that's a good start. you do seem to have a pretty good sense of the big picture.....you're just stuck on some of the stuff in the hallway that you stub your toe on.
maybe start by putting down the phone.....wrapping up the texting barrage. you'd get better and more healing replies from a pine tree.
it's ok, we get it.