Its a tough gig you have set for yourself. I associate France, which I used to go to for two to three weeks every year, with 'good' inexpensive wine and a lifestyle which includes siting out in the evening with a lovely meal and gallons of vino. I'm not sure I would be ready to go there quite yet and look at it all differently.
...except..
..that so called 'lifestyle' isn't accessible any more by yours truly unless I want what goes with it - huge mental anguish, physical ailments and the likelihood of serious re-ignition of potentially deadly addictive drinking.
It is tough but remembering that booze is no longer our dear buddy but now our mortal enemy, is something I try to remind myself of regularly. Maybe that can help?
Oddly, as an avowed atheist I also find the serenity 'prayer' (more a sort of chant in my case) helps me a lot.
Bonne chance in any case and hang in there!