Have you thought of making a gratitude list everyday? The best way is in the morning and evening before you go to bed.
I am thankful for a roof over my head.
I am thankful for all the kisses from my son.
I am thankful.....
I have learned from watching my xAH he is a miserable person. Yes he is doing all the above mentioned but for me it got to the point where I had to decide to waste more time on a situation that is ruined or just keep hoping.
I don't know about you, but once I learned of the cheating I put my big girls panties on and keep going.
It hurts and sucks but what more hurts and sucks is being with someone that is unstable and has a wondering eye.
Keep your chin up and know that there will come a point where you won't be so engulfed in him and what he is doing.
hugs KI