I don't have to. I am just so damn jealous and envious of my ex husbands affairs with women.. that although the dynamics between them would be toxic at least they have each other and comfort you know, the type you can only get from a lover.. where you can hang around the house all day and talk lovey dovey bliss... I am
so bitter it's not funny. I worked so hard at this.. I just feel like I need comfort.. but u can't just pluck a random out for this I know.. a random will only hurt my situation.