I firmly believe God does and already HAS forgiven us for our sins. He hasn't given up on us at all. I went away from God for a long time during the lowest point of my drinking. I lost everything, did some stupid stuff, and thought God had given up on me. However, that was not the case at all. He was and still is ALWAYS there when you need him. Read my quote in my signature. I truly believe if you do your part in staying strong and addiction free, then God will do His part and rescue you. I stopped praying because I was ashamed of myself and thought God would be too. I started praying to Him again. Even though I was and still am ashamed, I know He will always listen and be there. Just like my guardian angels, and just like your guardian angels. All we have to do is ask for forgiveness, and let Him take over.