chicory---that is great News! You have come a very long way in just 16days since your first post on this thread!
Once you start feeling the support and help from face-to-face persons...I think you will be astonished how your perspective will change.
Do you know the classic breathing exercise that stops feelings of panic or panic/anxiety attacks? If not--I will be happy to describe it....
You will have lots of time, now, to do background research and just plain old learning. Everything that you learn is another frame of reference.
I'm so happy to hear about the appointment....
dandylion