sitting here reading this i wonder to myself why would you want this person back in your life ?
then i remember my own cheating wife who gave me years of hell but i was never brave enough to kick her out and lead a life on my own
i think i was more scared of being alone that the love i had for her
the moment she broke that trust the relationship was dead forever it might of been saved if she was truely sorry and made sure it never happend again but sadly it did
so why hurt yourself anymore on a lost cause ?
in time you will feel much better out of this relationship than in it i know it doesnt feel like it right now but trust me in time things will heal for you
take care