I have also realized during many counseling sessions, this may be a time of year in your life, when something major happened..like martina12 says, this time last year is when they broke up. Well when bad things happen or major think upheavals, for several years after that, you will feel down or upset in someway during that time of year. Even if you don't consciously think about it. Like the death of my mom, or when my ex went to prison, or etc. Any major change that hurt especially, comes up. Hugs.