Me too!
I'm also separated from AH. I thought I was doing all the right things and getting stronger. Reading self help books, going to the gym, getting a bit more of a social life, booking a holiday with a friend etc etc.
Then, out of curiosity I stupidly looked at AH fb page and saw that he was on holiday with agf. I fell apart yet again, thinking if only I let him drink vodka this wouldn't have happened. Then reminding myself that I couldn't have this with my children in the house. Its such an emotional roller coaster....we split up this time last year and I thought I would be so over him! So I'm back here and its good to know that we are not alone in this.
Thank you Davenport for the reminder that grief comes in waves..I'd forgotten that one. I've just bought Melody Beatties 'Language of Letting Go' todays meditation is all about detaching from unhealthy people and how it really works. Going to try that today....