I went to AA the first time when I was about 23. Evidently..it didn't stick. I kept drinking. I couldn't handle my liquor then ...still can't. What I have is a barely lived life in my wake. What I didn't do is learn how to have fun (and there are plenty of ways) without alcohol. I didn't learn to handle stress. I didn't really become cognizant of my anxiety issues. I didn't learn to connect with others in an honest and intimate fashion. I didn't learn to feel comfortable with small talk in groups.. I didn't learn to live because I counted on booze to do my living. It's a lousy ship's captain.
I sincerely hope that it doesn't take you so long to learn to be yourself..without alcohol. It's sad trying to do so when you're old..er um..older : )
Hope and bright blessings....