It's great to meet you malavijuraii. You've come to the right place for help - we all understand how you're feeling.
I drank twice as long as you. I kept insisting I could learn to manage it and still have fun with it. In the end, I was drinking all day & I had no control once it was in my system. I'm glad you've recognized that it needs to stop. As Purpleknight said, it's best to have your doctor's advice. Keep posting and let us now how you're doing.