Originally Posted by
hj003 
And if I do drink, I can examine what drove me to it so it won't happen again. Some might say it would be better to avoid those type of parties, but my attitude is that I need to learn to be around alcohol. That's easier than leading a life of avoidance.
Damn.
"I need to learn to be around alcohol". Says who? You? Why? Why do you "need to learn" this?
What's this whole "If I do drink" stuff?
Do you really want to stay sober?
"A life of avoidance"? You've been at this one week, dude.
I am sorry to say this: but it appears you have very few coping skills to handle this kind of thing. Even if you don't drink tonight, this is the wrong road to set up for a successful recovery.
Good luck.