Originally Posted by
hj003 
Tonight I'm going to a party and the beer will be free. That's a great moment to prepare for and to test my sobriety, so I'm happy with it. The timing couldn't be better.
I have no desire to drink. And if I do drink, I can examine what drove me to it so it won't happen again.
I used to like to test myself until I ran into a string of failures. Passing one of these tests is like a dare to raise the stakes next time, give yourself a stronger temptation. And failing one -- well, you seem to think it will be easy to dust yourself off and come right back to sobriety. Not necessarily. If you can play around with your alcoholism, I envy you. I can't anymore.