Hey Boudicca,
No reason that your AV should have the power to punish you in any way at all!
Your AV will always be around to try to convince you that you made the wrong decision. But you know that you didn't, and you know that any and all such "punishing" remarks will just roll right over you and dissipate into nothingness.
We're SO glad you are here. AVRT and the Secular Connections part of SR feel most like home to me, as well.