Thanks so much. Actually I will be tested this evening. Going to dinner with friends I've not seen since executing my BP. They never knew I had a problem with alcohol, actually very few outside my family do.
I don't feel tempted at all, I know I won't drink......just feel as though it will be "weird." My AV is saying things to me like "maybe you could just let them pour you one glass of wine and pretend to drink it," or "it would be rude not to have just one." It's BS of course, but it is extremely angry that I've made this decision.
I think it is going to punish me all night and ruin what would otherwise be a lovely occasion with people I adore.