I can see that your brother wants desperately to see you succeed, and is putting a lot of his own emotional currency at stake. We, you and I, both know that no matter what he does, he cannot take you to the place where you need to be, to that place where you can stand proud and strong, knowing that you have chosen to quit drinking for good for you and you alone. That is all up to you.
This is a scary thing, but it is also a good thing. There is your entire world at stake, riding on your ability, and that is scary. The good part, is that you can do this. You can do this, and you will do this, for the simple reason that you must.
Onward, 13.