I have 90 days to turn my life around.
I guess in truth I only need one day and that day will consistently be 'today' if I'm always sober today then I will be fine.
Anyway 90 days refers to more than just the no alcohol part. Granted it's the most important part because if I'm not sober I don't allow myself any chances or grab any opportunities - so I'm going to stay with family who are well aware of my drinking and the lengths my beast goes to convince me and everyone else that I'm so ok and it's not a problem. Oh my word is it ever a problem!
In truth I'm ready for this but I'm also not naive about how uneasy I find living sober. Which is a contradiction because every time I drink I find it so hard. So maybe my first thought wasn't even mine hmm