I felt the same way. I wanted nothing more than for everyone to leave me alone so I could drink the way I wanted to.
I got what I wanted it and it was the tipping point that pushed me over the edge into my full blown alcoholism. I guess it was a blessing. Without it I am not sure I would be sober today. I would have continued to maintain my denial and pretend I was functioning.
That was my bottom, getting what I wished for. God working in mysterious ways. He will always provide, it just may look different than what we had in mind.