eliza24,
I have been to a few that were a bit overwhelming, but at this point it really doesn't matter we have to fight and do whatever necessary to get and stay sober. I was just like you, if I wen't anywhere socially I had to have at least a drink or two, but now I find the meetings a safe haven and it's strange, but for the first time in my life it's like 'I fit in' I'm finally a part of and can be myself and feel normal...
And yeah, ex-boyfriends mother...that would be totally awkward : ) Look up the schedule for meetings in your area and try different ones, I promise you'll know when you know and you'll never be the same. AA teaches me that this disease is, in fact, a spiritual issue...this means different things to different people, but I would suggest praying that God will lead you to the right meeting and help keep you sober till you get started and He will! This has been my experience!