I have a picture of myself at my sister's wedding. I have a drink in one hand and a beer in the other. It makes me cringe now to see it.
I've been living without alcohol for three and a half years now, and I was a daily drinker. At the end the fun was gone. I had to drink. Then, my health got so bad, physical and mental, that I couldn't drink. Still did for awhile and it was a nightmare.
It wasn't fun, it was pathetic. It's progressive and I hope you never reach the lows I did.