I hope you have contacted a hotline for abused women. While he is out, this is a good time to get some things in order to keep him out -- that hotline could help you with that I'm sure. I have read so many other women on here that have posted about their own abuse and it doesn't get better, but I suspect you know this. You're the only one that can change this for yourself..please make a call to help yourself...you can do it!