Raidersfan - you could never let us down - we all know what you're going through. You're in a weakened state right now, but you sound determined. When you're ready, I think the meetings are a good idea for you to try. In the meantime you can post here for support.
Every time I tried to control my drinking I ended up in a dangerous & unplanned situation. By the time I quit it was such a relief to be free of it. There was no fun in it anymore - only misery. Glad you've come to this realization and are taking action. We know you can do it.