Hi and welcome Raidersfan13
You're not 'mentally weak' - addiction is not weakness....and, even more importantly, you are not your addiction
I think you do have a clear problem, but it's a problem that many of us here share
Posting on SR regularly helped reinforce to me that I had a problem that wasn't going to go away.
You will need support, and I think you will need to make some life changes, but you really can beat this
I'm glad you found us