I am so moved by all the posts here.
I have to get ready for work, so have no time to write on my first step, but I look forward to it.
I have a son who is an alcoholic. I love him dearly, but when I think of how it would be for a child of his, to be with him when he is drinking,and be dependent on him for what he needs, it absolutely breaks my heart. I thank God that he has no children. Thinking about myself, having two parents like that, it hurts.
To think that we, as children, were in such a lonely and frightening and confusing situation. We had no control over their alcoholism, yet everything in our little hearts wanted to fix things, and to be like normal families. Trying to get normal out of crazy.
My life has been unmanageable a lot, and I look forward to learning just what I can let go of trying to control. I appreciate this thread!