Your beast is trying to fool you. It is trying to tell you that you are a helpless, befuddled alcoholic who doesn't know what to do. You appear to be falling for it and falling into your accustomed role of the chronic child who doesn't know what to do or where to go. You must remind yourself that you are an adult, abstinent and of sufficient moral turpitude to not act upon your animal instinct to drink anymore than you would act upon other private urges in public.