It makes me sad too Lizatola. It's an insidious disease that makes people choose alcohol over all the good things life has to offer. Alcoholism makes the A choose IT over loved ones, over fulfilling productive careers, and over their own health even. They choose IT over all the good life has to offer. And what's really awful is Alcoholism is the only disease where the afflicted can actually choose to recover, yet so many don't or won't. (to all the A's reading this I know it's not an easy task!) All the destruction and sadness really blow my mind.
My AH is such a good man. He's kind, loving, considerate, incredibly smart and so very talented, but becomes a totally different guy when he chooses to drink. He becomes someone I don't much like. The kind loving guy is replaced by a selfish, self centered a$$ who could give a crap about me or my feelings, or anything but staying out and getting messed up. It really is a Jekyll and Hyde type of thing. Sigh...
I hate this disease.