Love lost,numb
My axbf left a recovery program today...he called me to pick him up but he had already used. I told him he could not come home. He called all morning until I took him his check. I told him I will no longer bail him out or help him manage his money. Since last July he has ruined every holiday with his addiction. I have recently learned that my trying to help him actually has not. I am working on no longer being codependant. We just started a business together, however his addiction was strong. He claimed he was working his steps...Before I saw him this morning I prayed to my God. Although it's not the answer I wanted I must live my life...so I type this feeling numb....the day before mother's day...again