I held on to resentments for many yrs. and
drank over them, then just wanted to end
my misery of feeling like a failure.
Recovery has taught me to let go of those
resetments because they would surely
kill me in the long run.
I also had to learn to not let negative
thoughts of those who hurt me rent
space free in my head. Them taking
up all my thoughts completely drain
me, weaken me.
Today, they don't live rent free in my
mind because I wont let them. They
don't get that satisfaction to do so.
It's my choice and a healthy one.
I love my dad, but my sick mom took
him away from me. Took any kind of
a father daughter relationship we could
ever have because she was jealous that
I was going to take him away from her.
Sick Sick Sick
If you loved your dad, what would he
want you to do in this situation? How
would he console you? My dad always
gave me good advice and he never steered
me wrong, even when my other siblings
thought he was preaching to them.
Honor your dad in some special way. Maybe
plant some flowers in ur yard that would
attract butterflies and pretty birds. I have
a lovely back yard with pretty flowers that
attract birds and butterflies and when im
outside amongst them, I often believe it
is someone special to come talk to me or
keep me company.
I will probably continue to think this way
when the day my father passes on. Till
then, he is in good hands with God watching
over him in his own home.
