Soberella,
i don't know what the word vigilant means to you.
to me, it connotes a constant fear-driven being-on-guard.
and so i say no, i'm not vigilant.
what i am is aware. aware and awake that i'm an alcoholic. yes, i'm a non-drinker, too, but they're not interchangeable for me.
i'm aware of the truth of my "condition", so to speak.
just one view among many.
what are you finding helpful to you?