I do need to challenge my assumption that I want sobriety.
ghf,
yes, i think that's important. was for me, anyway.
look deeper, see if you want it without reservations or conditions. see where the "want to drink" is playing.
sometimes, i'd find that i was "supposed" to want sobriety, but what i really wanted was to be sober but still drink, too.
i never used Antabuse, but it can give you that time to get past that one-or two-week hurdle and give you time to get used to different ways of living your days.