Originally Posted by
MythOfSisyphus 
I agree; it's weird but you can't really just say you want to be sober. You really have to want it deep down.
That speaks to me. It's like, you can't just WANT to want-to-be-sober, you have to want sobriety without effort. Everything else everyone says about early recovery is pretty much true (I'm living it) but when you just naturally want sobriety, it's just necessary hard work you do, rather than it being an ongoing struggle.
All that other stuff about hitting bottom is hooey. Either your bottom is death or at some point you just make the decision.
-DrS