chicory,
The really good thing is, no decisions need to be made today. One day at a time. As we work on ourselves, things become clearer.
How far away is the nearest evening Alanon meeting? Ask a friend to go with you and drive. This reaching out thing is still hard for me, but at first it was almost immobilizing. Funny thing is, each time I do it, I am so proud of myself! The accomplishment of setting out what I planned on doing is very rewarding. It often takes multiple phone calls to many people I haven't talked to in ages, leaving voice mails, etc. It takes me a while to figure out who to call and what to say -- all great exercises for my weary brain. When I hit dead-ends, those become time to brain storm and figure out what else might work. I may not follow through on things I think of, but coming up with options for myself is very worthwhile.
