We must have no reservations if we are to get and stay sober. But we just take it one day at a time. We gather tools for staying sober. Like using the phone, calling others in recovery, talking out our pain instead of numbing it. We come to SR and post a new thread asking for help. Lean on God and our church.
We go to AA or NA meetings or any other source of group support or counseling. I have never lost anyone close to me in recovery. My parents are both in their 80's. They will die one day and I have to be prepared for that.
Picking up a drink again would be like adding tragedy to tragedy. The I relapsed back in 1992 after 2.5 years sober I was out there for about 22 years adding more horrendous things to my story.
There is no guarantee that I will make it back if I pick up. I no longer want to be chained to alcohol. I don't want it to be the reason I live or the reason I want to die.
Alcohol is not the solution, it is the problem to another problem.
I hope you find the support here at SR, AA etc.
We do not have to do this alone. I try not to think of what can happen. I think about today.
