Interesting thoughts. I don't think there's anything wrong with having a drink to feel happy. We do lots of things in our lives to feel happy. We all pursue things to that end. For some it's shopping, others go to movies and TV, others listen to music... geez, I could go on and on. So drinking some alcohol to feel good is not the major crime here. Most of us are here because we couldn't control the intake of the drug and the happiness that comes from its occasional use was completely gone. When I finally realized this, I overcame the addiction and it took some months to come out of the fog that was in my brain. I realized I was stuck in a lame job, living day to day just going nowhere. I decided to go back to school and I am at the point where I am almost done with that quest. But if you're making minimum wage and barely getting by, there are plenty of grants out there to get you started at school. I just think you need to start.