Originally Posted by
sugarbear1 
alcohol was but a symptom, I'm the problem and if I don't change, I am most likely going to repeat my old patterns of behaving, sooner or later.
why not try working the 12 steps?
Got the 12 steps and following them. Don't feel good going to aa meetings, gives me the sense of failure in following my fathers footsteps (or bottle).
Will see what happens as we go on. Refuse to repeat, new life to build but not sure what direction.