Mecanix, very true I always over analyze x
Matt, I am my biggest critic, so if I blame my husband, in my head, I blame me even more, as it's probably my fault, remembering what a drunk I was.
Thanks Jeni, xx my mum always said exactly that also. Xx
And Admiral. Yes, not thought of that , I will identify who I am not. Good point.
Thanks for your comments guys, I know my underlying problem which has started these thoughts off and I'm going to be stressed out all weekend but I will get there, thanks again x