torn, yeah, look into individual counseling. I know that most of my session is spent on "checking in" and the counselor dissects every individual on the spot which takes up tremendous time. By the time "check in" is over the two hours are up and I got to listen to people bitch and whine over a myriad of things. For ME it is a total waste of time. But going there is the only thing keeping my paycheck coming - it's my job. (?) I'm also in with a younger crowd. And then hearing people talk about "my PO" and Pi$$ing hot and my girlfriends texting, and my friend's friend's friend, I still didn't go to a meeting after 5 weeks, my mom can't drive me so I won't make it on Tuesday, I missed the bus etc.
We NEVER start on time. And it's like a lottery guessing who is going to show up. It's a F'ing romper room! Very little about recovery, mostly a bitch and whine session about what is ailing said addict on a particular day.
Plus the 'other stuff' at your place.