Hi Dee,
I have tried cutting down it works for a while I treat myself then bang two three bottles of wine later im in cuffs.....I quit smoking 30 years ago when I met Helen she didnt smoke so I did it out of respect I have never felt this abhorrent about myself before I must never ever drink again its been a week since my last episode im out of the marital home and today my work colleagues battered me to go for a drink which I refused I came straight home did some cooking and researched....my big problem is my wifes friends know and im highly embarresed by this however I think my poor wife may finally have washed her hands of me this time, im considering moving back to the UK andvreinventing myself no pressure no guilt.