Hi Aysha and hopefully you can keep coming. After many restarts keep coming sunk in and is well worth the effort involved as you have probably experienced. I needed to do things I didn't want to and was encouraged that it was for my benefit and it was. I'm thinking of the people you could help by telling your story here or at meetings. I realize that seem out of reach for now but that is what helps people, people helping people.
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