Welcome Angel Wings - That was me, when I started, I could not stop . . . 8 hour, 12 hour, 2 day binges. And the days after; how hard is the anxiety, depression, embarrassment to get over? Staying sober one moment, one day at a time absolutely gets easier! I like the story that our addiction is like being in a jail cell with the key in the door. All you have to do is turn the key and free yourself. For me, the key was "Acceptance of The Truth." Once I looked in the mirror and accepted this is who I am. Right then and there it became easier. Seek help, their are many like us. I am pulling and praying for you AngelWings. You can make this change and will never, ever regret it !